Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
Jean Jacques Rousseau
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An Interview with Chantelle Danielle

Meet Chantelle Danielle. She’s an up and coming writer who believes she’s finally ready to reveal to the world who she is.

How are you?

CD: The appropriate answer for this question would be “I’m fine.” But I’ll be honest, I’m not. I’m far from it. I can’t say I’m content either. I’m just… living.

What do you mean by “just living?”

CD: Just living means that I’m not happy neither content with my current situation but I’m working towards being content or better yet, happy.People always tell me to be content with my current situation, but I can’t because it bothers me daily.

You say that you’re finally ready to reveal yourself to the world.

CD: I believe I am. I’ve grown weary of keeping silent because I’ve come to realize that I am not meant to be. I often give people a facade. There are few times where a person is given the real me. I can count on one hand and less than four fingers the people that know the real me. I just don’t feel the need to hide who I am anymore- my interests, my sexuality, none of that. These are components of who I am. And I’m not hindering myself from expression to make someone else feel comfortable.

How is this going to carry over to your writing?

CD: It’ll be a lot more honest and dark. I’ll be talking about topics that I’ve always wanted to talk about but was too afraid to. 

Dark huh?

CD: Haha yes dark. It wasn’t until recently that I realized that I deal with depression. I’ve been dealing with it since I was a kid and it wasn’t until now that I looked back on my life and realized that I’ve never been happy. That I was always a pessimist or negative nancy. I’ve decided to air those dark thoughts. I think darkness is beautiful though. 

How are you dealing with depression?

CD: Taking it day by day. People think it’s so easy to go from negative to positive thinking. Like there’s some switch you just flick. There isn’t. This is an issue that I’ve dealt with my whole life so far. I’ve been trying to read some books and heed advice from my mentors but in the end it all boils down to me. I’ve got to look myself in the mirror and deal with this before it deals with me.

How’s your love life? 

CD: Dismal. Non existent. I wrote a piece about it called “Dismal Love.” Did I mention that I haven’t had sex in a year and a couple of months?! Haha. Anywho, yeah I recently met this girl who had everything I wanted and needed. She was feeling me and I was feeling her. Then one day I got a text telling me she realized that she had too much baggage and couldn’t lead me on to believe that she could start something new. We still talk as friends, but sometimes I can’t help but to get mad because she could’ve been the one. But whatever. Right now, I’m done trying. It’s pointless and I could use the energy I put into being turned down by women into something else.

So what are your plans for the rest of 2014?

CD: To focus on my myself and my career. I graduate from CofC in December 2015 and I’m currently doing an internship for Elixher. I’ve never fully focused on me, and now is the time to do so. There are so many things that I want to do and accomplish that can only be done if I have tunnel vision.


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note-a-bear:

glitterlion:

Everybody else in this fuckin’ town is fallin’ in love and gettin’ engaged and havin’ babies

This scene was so fucking overdue especially with how they’ve been treating Lafayette these past few seasons.

I felt this scene in my bones.

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desireforproperattire:

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desireforproperattire:

Pt. 2

Depression does not always mean
Beautiful girls shattering at the wrists
A glorified, heroic battle for your sanity
Or mothers that never got the chance to say good-bye

Sometimes depression means
Not getting out of bed for three days
Because your feet refuse to believe
That they will not shatter upon impact with the floor

Sometimes depression means
That summoning the willpower
To go downstairs and do the laundry
Is the most impressive thing you accomplish that week

Sometimes depression means
Lying on the floor staring at the ceiling for hours
Because you cannot convince your body
That it is capable of movement

Sometimes depression means
Not being able to write for weeks
Because the only words you have to offer the world
Are trapped and drowning and I swear to God I’m trying

Sometimes depression means
That every single bone in your body aches
But you have to keep going through the motions
Because you are not allowed to call in to work depressed

Sometimes depression means
Ignoring every phone call for an entire month
Because yes, they have the right number
But you’re not the person they’re looking for, not anymore


by “Alexandra” Tilton, NH (Teen Ink: November 2013 Issue)

This is so sad

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