Meet Chantelle Danielle. She’s an up and coming writer who believes she’s finally ready to reveal to the world who she is.
How are you?
CD: The appropriate answer for this question would be “I’m fine.” But I’ll be honest, I’m not. I’m far from it. I can’t say I’m content either. I’m just… living.
What do you mean by “just living?”
CD:Just living means that I’m not happy neither content with my current situation but I’m working towards being content or better yet, happy.People always tell me to be content with my current situation, but I can’t because it bothers me daily.
You say that you’re finally ready to reveal yourself to the world.
CD: I believe I am. I’ve grown weary of keeping silent because I’ve come to realize that I am not meant to be. I often give people a facade. There are few times where a person is given the real me. I can count on one hand and less than four fingers the people that know the real me. I just don’t feel the need to hide who I am anymore- my interests, my sexuality, none of that. These are components of who I am. And I’m not hindering myself from expression to make someone else feel comfortable.
How is this going to carry over to your writing?
CD: It’ll be a lot more honest and dark. I’ll be talking about topics that I’ve always wanted to talk about but was too afraid to.
CD: Haha yes dark. It wasn’t until recently that I realized that I deal with depression. I’ve been dealing with it since I was a kid and it wasn’t until now that I looked back on my life and realized that I’ve never been happy. That I was always a pessimist or negative nancy. I’ve decided to air those dark thoughts. I think darkness is beautiful though.
How are you dealing with depression?
CD: Taking it day by day. People think it’s so easy to go from negative to positive thinking. Like there’s some switch you just flick. There isn’t. This is an issue that I’ve dealt with my whole life so far. I’ve been trying to read some books and heed advice from my mentors but in the end it all boils down to me. I’ve got to look myself in the mirror and deal with this before it deals with me.
How’s your love life?
CD: Dismal. Non existent. I wrote a piece about it called “Dismal Love.” Did I mention that I haven’t had sex in a year and a couple of months?! Haha. Anywho, yeah I recently met this girl who had everything I wanted and needed. She was feeling me and I was feeling her. Then one day I got a text telling me she realized that she had too much baggage and couldn’t lead me on to believe that she could start something new. We still talk as friends, but sometimes I can’t help but to get mad because she could’ve been the one. But whatever. Right now, I’m done trying. It’s pointless and I could use the energy I put into being turned down by women into something else.
So what are your plans for the rest of 2014?
CD: To focus on my myself and my career. I graduate from CofC in December 2015 and I’m currently doing an internship for Elixher. I’ve never fully focused on me, and now is the time to do so. There are so many things that I want to do and accomplish that can only be done if I have tunnel vision.
"it is not my responsibility to petition anyone to love me and to fight for me. In both my romantic and platonic relationships, I have learned how to stand still even when people I want in my life are walking away and all I can see are images of their backs getting smaller as they move further away.”
”I remembered that no matter the smile, the open communication, the love you see and feel, some of the most loving people are capable of hurting you.”
"if I’m not truthful with myself about the state of my own heart, like my former lover, I may end up making the worst mistakes with the best intentions when it comes to love."
After reading the “Date A Girl Who Reads” article, I knew someone out there would have written a response with “Date A Girl Who Writes”. Thus, here it is. I wish I knew who to credit for this, but I couldn’t find a name.
Date a girl who writes because she will be able to recall in detail the…